Little Blessings (Pt. 16)

If I’m being honest, I don’ t wan

t to count my blessings today.

I also think that on days like today, the best thing I can do is count them.

So here we go…

:) My daughter’s cuddles.

:) A precious reminder of the very first Christmas tonight.

(Great job, ILS students!)

:) Starbucks coffee with peppermint.

:) Jeans on clearance.

:) A “talk” earlier this week on Skype with our beloved pembantu in Indonesia. The language barrier and internet connection made it challenging, but just having the chance for her to “meet” Maelie…was precious. Mae even blew her a kiss goodbye. I hope for more moments like that.

:) Opportunities to show love

to others.

:) Running in snowflakes.

:) The chance to trust when I can’t see.

:) My Father, Who loves me and holds me each

and every moment.

:) The most precious gift of all, a tiny baby, sent so many years ago.

Sig

Sentimental

My husband would tell you that I have a hard time getting rid of certain things.

When it comes to things like clothes or household items, I have no problem donating them or whatever when it’s time to de-clutter.

It’s the little things…the things with sentimental value that I just can’t part with.

And so, I tell you a little story. ‘Cause you all know I like stories. :)

About three years ago, when we were living in Indonesia, I had a pretty tough week. It was

busy, I was super-stressed, and I just needed a day of pampering…so a friend and I headed to one of the local malls for reflexology massages.

$5 for an hour of bliss…really. I can think of NO better way to spend Rp 50,000…the equivalent of about US $5.

After our glorious hour, we went to Starbucks (also at the mall) and I think squeezed in a little outlet shopping, too, before heading home.

I remember that morning so well because I felt human again after all the crazy that had encompassed my life the previous week.

I was about to plop down on the couch for a movie and/or nap when I decided I needed a piece of chocolate… and I broke into the heavily guarded, semi-secret, American c

andy stash we had in the kitchen.

I pulled out a Dove Promise.

And here’s the thing about those…you know how they always have a quote on the inside of the wrapper

? Whenever I eat one of those chocolates, I am careful to never tear the wrapper, just in case the quote is a keeper.

And this one was.

It said?

Get your feet massaged.

Really?!?!

What are the odds

?

I know it’s nothing earth-shattering…but it m ade me smile, it w

as ironic, and it reminded me of a happy time.

And so I put it in my wallet on that day a few years ago.

I’ve switched wallets a few times…and that quote has survived all the switches.

It’s a tiny piece of foil…but to me, it represents so much.

Laughter with a friend. Memories I’ll always cherish. A day that was a good one. A place that will always be in my heart.

So if you ever catch me staring at something in my wallet and smiling, now you know.

Those sentimental things are worth keeping.

Sig

All Over the Place

Warning: I’m about as scattered as Humpty Dumpty’s poor, shattered, eggshell-of-a-body tonight. So read…or don’t.

Either way, I’ll still love ya.

:)

To preface this, I really don’t watch much TV. Other than the Morning Show occasionally, Blues’ Clues with Mae while she has a morning snack, and sometimes Millionaire in the afternoon so I can feel smart.

So when the ritual Sunday football mania was over tonight…

Insert…deep breath…and a WHEW!

Don’t do that to us, Pack.

Anyway, so when it was over I decided to keep the TV on and watch The Amazing Race.

Which I love, but really, my life has been an amazing race of sorts, and I don’t think the producers would ever let me and Tobin race it for real.

(Because we know too well how to navigate a country without speaking a lick of the language, maybe?! ;)) So I don’t really watch it.

Except I’d heard several weeks ago that they’d been to Indonesia…and to Yogyakarta, one of our favorite Indo cities. This trip to Indonesia was a first for the show, and I’ll admit I’ve been curious. So I pulled the episode up on cbs.com and watched away.

The teams stood in places we did…the Jakarta airport, Gambir train station and the Yogya station, Malioboro Mall.

Things made me smile…like seeing the Bata shoe store and Blue Bird taxis and a motorbike identical to what I drove and black and white painted curbs.

There were words I recognized and beautiful Indonesian faces that looked so familiar…and it was just so smile-worthy. (Though I’ll totally admit that I cracked up hearing the teams botch the pronunciation of Yogyakarta, too.

:)) I think it’s awesome that CBS finally thought Indo was cool enough to send people there.

But in watching all of this…

I didn’t expect the familiar ache.

I’m learning that it will always return whenever those particular strings on my heart are pulled.

I didn’t expect to cry.

I’m learning that it’s ok to cry over something.

I didn’t expect to want to dive for my phone and call Delta to try to use our miles again.

😉

Don’t worry…I didn’t yet. We’ll see. Yeah.

I have no idea why it’s so hard to let go of this place that was our better or worse for five years.

I HATED the snakes…they gave me nightmares. I HATED the horrendous traffic.

I HATED the lack of so many things I deemed “necessary” for happy survival.

And yet, I must have LOVED

…the people, the pretty green everywhere, the way I was loved and accepted, the people, the shopping ;), the motorbike love, the people…

Indonesia wormed its way into the heart of a girl who never thought she could love something so different.

So tonight my heart aches a little and I hurt a little more.

I’ll probably cry a little more tonight.

And tomorrow, I’ll wake up and smile because I remember the LOVE.

Thank God for Indonesia.

And if you want to see a bit of what pulls on my heart, you can find the video here. It’s long but worth the watch…the producers did an amazing job of representing Indonesia. Who wouldn’t want to visi

t? :)

Sig

30 Days of Thanks, Day 28: Prayer

Every single day I’m thankful for prayer…

Not just because I know I can talk to my Father anytime but also because I know He is listening.

All the time.

And that He always cares…and always answers in His way in His time.

There’s a family we know from Indonesia that really needs your prayers right now. In fact, if you’re reading this, will you stop and pray for them? They got some very scary news today regarding their husband/daddy’s health.

They have been so Christlike through the last week as they waited and waited for test results…and also after learning the results. Quoting Scripture, clinging to the promises that God has given, trusting completely that He knows what is best. It brings me to tears to read updates from them.

But the fact is, it’s a serious situation.

They’re being showered in prayer by people all over the world. Will you join me in praying for them?

Thank you, God, that we can always cry out to You and know that You hear.

Sig

30 Days of Thanks, Day 14: Change

Haha! 😀

I literally did laugh out loud when I thought about what I get to write about. Then I wondered why I even made it a topic…isn’t “Change” the story of my life

?

In all seriousness, I’ve been thinking about change

and how it so often becomes blessings through tears.

Yesterday Tobin and I had the privilege of sharing our life in Indonesia with some people at our church.

Of course, to prepare for that, we had to hash out a few things and watch a couple different videos…which brought back so many memories.

And just this morning, I was looking through some photos…more of the same…

And I felt that familiar ache in my heart.

I’m not sure why it’s so hard to move from one phase of life to another, but it is.

Memories don’t just disappear, friendships don’t just go away…

Love doesn’t just die.

Leaving our life in Indonesia was as big a change as we could have possibly experienced, adding the fact that we were about to become parents and move to a new city, too.

Can I be honest? I still hurt over the loss those changes brought.

But I still smile, too…because I like to see the blessings that came through that change, even if there were

a lot of tears.

And there were.

I love my life now, and Tobin and I have said repeatedly that we would love to stay here and let this be home.

What scares me? Is that I know we need to be sensitive to God’s will, and the very real possibility exists that He may ask us to do something else…something involving more change.

We’d do it…but that doesn’t mean it would be easy.

Change is tough, and giving thanks for it is even harder.

But today, I’m thankful for it…and the places

it has taken us.

Especially to this place.

Sig

30 Days of Thanks, Day 5: Storms

I love a good thunderstorm.

In fact, I believe I started a blog post with exactly that same statement a couple weeks ago.

One of my absolute favorite things in the world to do is curl up under a fluffy, warm blanket and take a nap while a huge thunderstorm crashes outside.

I also love a snowstorm, the kind of blizzard that blows with fury and promises at least one snow day…if not more.

True, I’m not a teacher anymore; therefore, snow days have no real merit. And at the same time, knowing that everyone around me is hunkered down, sipping coffee (or cocoa) and watching the white rage outside…it’s comforting. I’m also known to randomly bake cupcakes late at night when there’s a blizzard going…that’s just fun. Plus, cupcakes are really good with coffee and cocoa…and just about anything else.

Ok, sorry…small rabbit trail. 😉

Anyway, I’m definitely thankful for those kind of storms.

But I also know that when I came up with my writing topics for this month, that those kind of storms weren’t really what I had in mind.

Do you mind if I tell you a story?

You see, there’s a golden retriever sleeping on the floor at the foot of my bed as I type this.

His name is Sammy.

And while those of you who know Sammy think of him as a crazy, lovable, lion of a puppy, he h

as so much more to his story.

True, he annoys the c–p out of me almost daily. He barks and wakes up Maelie, he never leaves Andre alone, he destroys stuffed animals, he carries the bathroom rug around the house…and outside.

But for a week, over four years ago, we found out what it was like to live without all of this.

And it’s this storm that I want to tell you about.

Tobin and I had just spent a summer in Indonesia while most of our friends had gone back to the States.

We’d had some good times…and some tough times, and we’d decided, as the school year was just beginning, that we needed to be more disciplined with spending time in God’s Word.

We were waking up early to read and pray…and while those first days took some major discipline and dedication, it was becoming habit. Good habit.

We were growing, something we desperately desired, and it was good.

Not long after we had gotten into this habit, something turned our world upside down.

Sammy was stolen.

Someone, in broad daylight while we were at school, had come to our fence, lured him to the edge of our yard, and taken him.

To say we were devastated only scratches the very surface.

We couldn’t eat. We couldn’t sleep. We couldn’t function at school, though we tried. We couldn’t think of anything but our Sam.

Where was he?

E ach d

ay seemed like a year. We prayed, we drove by the stolen dog markets multiple times a day (yes, they really do exist), we handed out fliers, we offered a huge reward.

And we cried.

I’m an emotional female and tears aren’t so rare for me…but to see my husband break down and sob over the loss of our Sam…was heartbreaking.

We couldn’t understand why God was letting this unbearable storm rage around us.

One afternoon when Sam had been gone a few days, Tobin went down at the police station to file a report.

I was home alone.

The sun was shining, it was the perfect Indonesia September day…

And it was just pouring in my gray, defeated heart.

I felt helpless.

I felt crushed.

We wanted to grow…and we were growing.

There was nothing I could do…nothing.

And it was at that moment that I dropped to my knees…and literally fell on my face before God.

I sobbed…as I poured out my heart.

I cried out to Him and told Him how much I was hurting, how much I missed my Sammy, and then…

How much I still loved Him and trusted His plan.

And I honestly can’t tell you that, as those words came out of my mouth, that they were in my own power.

Because I’m pretty sure they weren’t…but that didn’t make them any less true.

A few more days followed (you’ve heard the rest of the story) before Sammy was returned to us.

I still remember how the sunshine literally returned to our lives that day…how we couldn’t wait to just live again. Of course, we spent a lot of time loving on our dogs…

But we also spent a lot of time basking in the JOY that came after the storm…and giving thanks for blessings. Tobin and I also, I believe, got a little peek at the heart of God…and how He truly does care for His children and the things that matter to each of us.

To say I’m thankful for storms is hard… none of us love when life is hard.

But what comes after the dark is beautiful.

And for that?

I am thankful.

Sig

Flashback…Thursday?

I was chatting with a friend today and remembered that we had this.

To be honest, it’s kind of embarrassing and yet, at the same time, a wonderful memory.

I am hugely pregnant,  SO not a beautiful pregnant woman at all, AND I talk about sweat running down my nose.

Trust me, if you had been there, you would have had sweat running down your nose, too. 😉

But I love it anyway.

So, ignore the weirdness that we are, and enjoy the beautiful beach and Maelie’s first “trip” to Bali. :)

Sig

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry…I just couldn’t resist.

LOOK what I found at the grocery store today!!!! Just look at it!!!!

REAL Indo Mie. Made in Indonesia and everything!

I can die happy now.

Well, today, at least.

😉

Sig

The Great Schroeder Adventure…Day 5

Today was really low key… and NO driving.

Which we were very happy about. :)

I went for a little run with Sarah and drank some coffee, which is pretty much a perfect start to any morning.

Then we hopped over to the NICS Home Office to say hi to a few people from our Indonesia life. It was good to see them and a little emotional. But not too much and I left feeling thankful…for an unforgettable chapter of life and for where we are now.

Then we headed back to the house where Mae loudly protested her nap for over an hour before finally giving in to sleep. But I couldn’t be too annoyed by her after I saw this picture of her and her new favorite activity. No doll required…pushing the stroller is enough happy for her. (Though I guess Tobin chose the picture WITH the doll. ;)) Really cute.


While she slept, Tobin built this with two pretty awesome kiddos. They thought he was the coolest person ever.


After dinner we went out for ice cream, and Maelie got her very own free cone. (Which she scarfed down and then begged from us. Cute. :))

Then we ended the day with some Settlers of Catan, which the four of us used to play for hours and hours in Indonesia.

Definitely a good day.

And there was no driving involved, which I really liked. 😉

Until tomorrow.

Sig

The Great Schroeder Adventure…Day 4

So…it was a random kind of adventure day.

Ever have those?

Well, we started off planning to go see this.

Which, apparently, is not a good idea if it’s raining. We may hit it on the way back… or maybe not. Still figuring out that one.

So, instead, we went to Union Station, walked around a bit, and took a few pictures. Here’s one of me with my girl. I look kind of tired because I haven’t had my coffee yet. But, don’t worry, I got it a few minutes later. Whew! 😉

On our drive down to Southaven, we stopped at a “travel plaza” (more on THAT later…) and I found this.

And, between the two of us, we actually ate it. It was pickled. And it was not very spicy.

But we ate it. ‘Cause we lived in Indonesia and will eat anything.

Gas prices are cheap…well, compared to the Chicago area. We like that very much.

And this is what Maelie loves to do to pass the time on road trips. (Kris & Jonny…make sure you check out the book title. ;))

And we topped of day #4 by finally getting to see some sweet friends. It’s been too long. (I don’t have any pics of that because I don’t think any of us wanted our picture taken at 11:17 p.m.)

Love reunions and good times.

More tomorrow. :) G’nite!

Sig