I accepted the realization the other day that I have a little rebellious streak.
(That’s why I said accepted…I’ve known it for awhile.
:))
I think
the whole idea behind that rebellion is that I don’t like to be put in a box.
I don’t mean that I think it’s wrong to have boundaries…in fact, life without boundaries isn’ t very heal
thy.
I’m referring to being put into a box based on other’s expectations…or even my own, in this case.
A few weeks ago I set a goal to write here every single day for a year.
It is: 1) going ok…I’m not running out of ideas yet; 2) providing some good reflection and processing time that I believe is necessary in transition; 3) teaching me to evaluate the tone of things that I write; 4) giving me an outlet to be myself; and 5) giving me a pl
ace to share the things I am passionate about.
Overall, it’s good…and I get to write, which
I love.
But I also unofficially (aka: in my head) set a goal to make Mondays my day of the week to blog about what God is teaching me from His Word.
And there’s nothing wrong with that…It’s a very good thing.
I love it that I’ m learning again, because truthfully, I went a through long stretch when I felt like I was living in a desert.
But then I ran into a couple problems: 1) The Packers won the Super Bowl (that’s right, this is all the Pack’s fault!); and 2) Valentine’s Day.
I wanted to blog about those.
And I felt guilty that I blogged about them instead of the Bible…and I shouldn’t make myself feel that way.
So I need to get out of this box of expectations that I’ve already plopped myself into.
God is doing some cool stuff and when the time is right, I’ll share it with you. That may be five times a week, it may be once every three weeks. But limiting myself (and Him) in that way is stressing me out and making me worry about what other people think.
So I’m going to move away from the whole Mondays-I-will-do-this-Tuesdays-I-will-do-that thing and just write what’s on my heart.
I’m jumping out of the box today.
Thanks so much for reading…and for those of you who have left comments or just told me you love my blog…
Thank you.
It means a lot.
Fan.Tas.Tic!
I thought I felt a breeze earlier! It was you. Jumping out of the box! Welcome! I live outside the box *laugh*
It’s about freedom of being exactly who you are on a given day. But I understand the idea of wanting to do something specific. And the fear of not meeting the standard you set for yourself and then what people will think of you!
Ha ha ha! Oh the things we put ourselves through!
Keep it up! Loving stopping by!
I don’t know…reading your post on Valentine’s Day and thinking back about all the things God has done in our lives and what He’s brought us through felt pretty spiritual to me!