I looked in the mirror
the other day and caught the reflection of both myself and my husband.
We looked so old.
Tobin was not pleased when I shared this with him, either.
I don’t think I meant that we look like we’ve aged 30 years in the past eight…I think I was referring to experience. Things we have seen, done, ways we have changed, what has stretched us, what has hurt us, how we’ve grown, and how we have come out of it all looking…well, more experienced.
Sometimes when I look back I just don’t believe that we’ve really squeezed all we have into the last 8 1/2 years. It felt like so much of that time was go-go-go, and in the midst of that, I forgot to soak it up. Between the two of us, we’ve had nine different jobs, lived in four different houses on two different continents and two different states,
and driven five different cars and two motorbikes. We’ve “adopted” two dogs, had a baby girl, gone through more transition squeezed into six weeks than most people go through in a lifetime, all while trying to keep it together in our marriage.
And when I look at our marriage and family, that’s where I see the hand of God most clearly in our lives right now. There have been so many times when either of us could have just walked out…quit, been done with it all. There have been a few times when I think the sheer stress and emotions of life could have completely destroyed what we had…but somehow we hung on.
And I know now, more than ever, that we didn’t hang on in our own strength.
So today I’m just thankful for the man I married.
He keeps me laughing with his goofy sense of humor. He shows me his love in a million ways–especially by working so I can stay home with our girl.
He also does the dishes most nights, which I am really thankful for, even if I don’t always express that appreciation.
He goes on crazy adventures with me, like African safaris and Indonesian beach trips. (Heck, for those, getting there IS the adventure.
:)) He even bought me my own website because he thinks I can make it in the mommy blog circuit.
I love this guy so much.
And I have absolutely no regrets…even if I forget to soak up some of the moments.
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