What do you really want more of in your life? Will you dare to say it out loud?
Well, since you’re asking…I really want more coffee and sleep. (Strange paradox, I know.) And, silly, but I’ve kinda been hoping for a pair of these…I can’t believe this world traveler has stomped her feet in so many places without a pair of TOMS. 😉
But since those probably aren’t acceptable (or inspiring) answers, we can talk a little longer.
This was another question I wrestled with over the last week, but I think that wrestling and battling was so much against my own fear…and I think what’s coming out of it is good.
Scary, but good.
Though, up front you need to know that this. is. the. scariest. post. I’ve. ever. written.
Please be gentle with my heart.
Deep breath…here we go.
In the fall semester of 2007, over our Idul Fitri break from school, some friends and I flew up to Sumatra to visit Bukit Lawang, an orangutan preserve. Included in that long weekend was a day-long jungle hike.
Forgive me here for not sharing too many fun details. This may, or may not, be a chapter in my book.
At some point during that hike, we stopped for a water break, and I took the time to really look around me.
Vines everywhere…it was totally like the movie Tarzan. And I’d kinda had this dream to be Jane at one point in my life.
It was at that moment I realized there was an opportunity in front of me…one that, if I didn’t take then, I might never have again.
So I asked our guide to cut me a vine so I could swing.
He looked at me, laughed a little, and then obliged. He was even kind enough to test it out for me.
I was scared for a minute, but I reminded myself that now was the time…and if I ever wanted to be jungle-swinging Jane, this was the day.
Deep breath…whoooooosh. I sailed through the jungle.
Ok, ok…so maybe sailed is the wrong word. Gotta be honest that my awesome vine-swing was not exactly like it is in the movies.
Definitely still a dream come true, but it wasn’t quite so dramatic.
Is that sometimes dreams take a deep breath and bravery, but they can turn into something truly incredible.
I’ve been reading (and re-reading parts of) a fantastic book that I think maybe some of you have heard me talk about. 😉
It’s pretty much amazing.
And as I’ve been chewing on the first part of the book (no, not literally…though I may have chewed off a few fingernails!) I’ve realized something.
When it comes to dreams and saying them aloud, I’ve been safe.
Maybe it’s because I am an ENFP through and through…very much a talker, processor, people-lover, sky-high dreamer, and I thrive on it all.
So when I shared my dream for the first time, it didn’t scare me, at least too much.
The prospect of writing a book, in general, doesn’t scare me because I’m not afraid of words and stories.
Don’t get me wrong, there will definitely be butterflies that will most likely be doing backflips off of my stomach lining when (and if) my book is published, but this kind of dreaming makes me want to jump up and down and do cartwheels.
At least right now.
All that to say, for me, there is safety with words.
God has given me this dream, and I know it’s for me…and because He gives good things to His children, I know He’s got this. And I can’t wait for His plan to unfold.
However…ya had to know there would be more, right?!
What do I want to see more of in my life?
Leaping out of my comfort zone with my arms outstretched, ready to embrace whatever He has for me.
Last week a Dream Team sister and I were exchanging facebook messages, and I let something slip. Sort of…I really did want her to know.
My other dream.
There is another one…that long-term one that really seems out of reach right now.
For a long time I wanted to keep it hidden, preferrably behind a door with twelve locks, but that’s not being brave, now, is it? 😉
I want more bravery…more courage…to let go, and trust completely that my Father has all of these dreams in His hands and that He’s going to make them beautiful.
And not only the bravery to dream them but the heart to accept His answer, whatever it is.
So we’ve come to the part of the show…ahem, post…where I take a deep breath.
and tell you another deep desire that has been rooted in my heart for quite some time.
There’s a pretty fantastic online space out there…maybe you’ve heard of it? 😉
I’d love to be one of their regular writers.
Father, you are the Giver of all dreams…and I trust You with this one, too.
Amen. Amen. Amen.
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