My heart’s been going through a lot lately, some of which I can’ t even effec
tively describe.
It’s not like it’s drama…it’s not really even a big deal. It’s not sad, it’s not stressful, it just is.
Oh, I don’t know
what it is.
Maybe…silly? Anyway, it’s something I don’t really expect most people to understand, but I’ll talk about it anyway ’cause it’ s my blog.
A lot of it has to do with a lack of change,
something my hubby and I chatted about last night.
A lack of change.
Dude, Mel, do you realize how much change you’ve gone through in the last yea
r?
Yeah, I know.
In our married life, Tobin have been the picture of what a constantly changing life looks like.
Year #1…he got laid off, job search, job switch for me. Oh, yeah, we were getting used to being married, too. 😉
Year #2…new job for him, new job for me.
Year #3…two jobs for him, another new one for me, selling everything, moving to Indo.
Years #4-8…Indo, which was full of constant change.
Year #9…EVERYTHING changed.
And now we’re going into Year #10. And other than buying a house, nothing’s changing.
It is the strangest, most unimaginable thing for us to consider committing
to one place for a long time. (I guess we’re past considering…it’s reality. :))
It’s kind of freaky to me when I consider settling down for good.
Don’t get me wrong…this is something we’ve dreamed of and hoped for…and are excited for.
But it feels like such a huge commitment.
Is it normal for someone to feel that way?
It’s something so strange that I almost can’t talk about it because I don’t want people to think I’m weird.
I guess for us…the fact that life is NOT changing? Is our change.
See if you can wrap your mind around that one.
Please pray for us as we finish up the last things toward purchasing our house. Financing is figured out (Praise God!) so now we’re just waiting on all of the papers for closing to be finished, then we’ll sign them and finally be homeowners! Exciting stuff ahead…even if it’s not really change.
So many blessings to count. He is so Good.
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