How ironic that
humility is the topic of choice following yester da
y’ s rant of
sorts.
Like I said in my follow-up post, I have a policy of not deleting posts unless there’ s a really good rea
son. The things I write reflect my heart at the time…and emotions change. I’m not making excuses, just being honest.
Yesterday was drama-ish.
I was tired, hurting, frustrated, and let two seemingly small(er) straws break the camel’s back. Personally, I think I needed a good cry…and those two things provided an outlet for just that.
And my dramatic tendencies were quickly humbled several hours later when I opened an e-mail…and we’re delighted to let you know that we want
to share your submission with our community.
First reaction? Big smile.
Second? Ohhhh… what did I just splash onto this blog
?
Mel. Has. Been. Humbled.
Happens often.
Of course, because of yesterday’s events, being humble is in the forefront of my mind. Obviously, I need to work on it…and because of that, it’s worth processing on the blog.
When I think of the three things that God tell us to do in Micah 6:8…Do Justice, Love Kindness, Walk Humbly with your God…for some reason, humility stands out. Maybe because it’s attached to the phrase “with your God”.
Humility cannot be achieved alone.
In my own strength, I get wrapped up in myself, in the events of my life, in the things that are complicating my plans.
See a theme here?
In true humility, I would be focusing on Him instead of myself.
I have always struggled being humble.
It isn’t that I believe I’m overly and outwardly prideful, but I think that pride can often creep up and make me think I’m all that.
I was thinking about pride and the things that happened yesterday to “squash” me…first, discouragement about not hearing back from blogs I wanted to write for.
Well, Mel, what makes you worthy of that? Why is your writing good enough for that
?
Oh, ouch. Ouch. That hurt, but it’s true. Why do any of us have gifts? It isn’t because of anything we’ve done, rather what He’s done.
Then the video. Could it be that I was a little bit prideful with that, too
? I don’t know…I didn’t think so at the time, but maybe there was a l ittle of
it creeping up somewhere.
Double ouch.
(And we found out last night that there was a problem with the clip we sent…apparently the format we used is difficult with Macs sometimes, which I didn’t know. The guy in charge of the project was so nice about it and apologized…it definitely wasn’t his fault at all. He even offered me another chance in the future, and that blessed my heart.)
And then how does God remind me of His faithfulness, although I have had such an awful, me-me-me day?
He gives me one of the desires of my heart.
Oh, when will I learn
?
Today I am thankful for a Father who gently humbles his children with love and compassion. Who sees a hurting child and, despite her selfishness and pride, continues to give and bless.
Humility is a journey…one that none of us will ever truly complete, but we can keep trying and hanging on to His hand as we walk with Him.
I’m so thankful that He’s willing to walk with me no matter what.
That’s one of my favorite verses!! They sell a metal sign at Hobby Lobby with this verse on it, but it’s red and silver? Where do you put red and silver in your house?
After all the hoopla in my legalistic childhood and I read that this is what God asks of His children? But ya know….now that I think of it, it would be much easier to dress appropriately, not listen to rock and roll music, not play cards, be in church 24/7, never have anything to do with anyone other than Christians than to follow the instructions in this verse.
And I find that it’s most certainly after a “me, me, me” day that He really gets our attention and whispers in our ear…..You can’t do this without Me.
Thanks for your heart Mel!
I can completely relate – all of my childish moments have one root cause – my pride and inability to lay down my views or desires for another. Thanks for a great post.