I was walking through Hobby Lobby the other day and I came across this. And I had to have it.
Bonus? It was 50% off…I think I paid $7 for it. (I really, really, loooove that store.) 😉
Yes, it’s a bike and not much else. No inspirational words, no deep thoughts to ponder, just a bike.
A bike.
And yet, it somehow struck a chord with me.
So we’ve been home from Indonesia for about four years and back from our visit for 38 days.
38 times I’ve woken up in the morning, most days with at least a smile because this really is such a good place. I love it.
But there have been more-than-a-few days, too, where there’s that ache in my chest followed by a quick, whispered prayer. Father, I miss it. Why?
That’s a hard thing to admit to y’all…that my first words of the day have sometimes been of wondering and questioning, instead of trust.
It seems that the theme of my life, the story He has for me right now, revolves around the word, Here.
I. Am. Here. Deep, I know…but a concept every single one of you can relate to, due to the fact that you are…well, you are in your here, whatever that may look like, and wherever it may be. 😉
When I was little, I dreamed of another place…anywhere but my small town, where belonging never did happen. I didn’t want my here.
In college, I longed for a place with a bit more freedom.
I got married, and I longed for more because being married is tough stuff and a continual, day by day, process. Still.
In those first years of marriage, it was a longing for His Great Big Plan…wherever that took us.
And when that plan took us to Indonesia, we longed for home…far too often.
And now, here…well, sometimes we long for there.
It’s a jumble of always being Here. And, often, wanting there.
And it’s been a slow process…to accept that where He has me is always what’s best. It is because…well, because it is, and because it has to be.
My plan isn’t better than what He’s got…you’d think I’d have learned that a long time ago.
So if He’s got me here…well, here is where I should be.
And so I wrestle…and surrender. Wrestle again, surrender some more.
The truth is that my heart is torn between countries and continents, the crack separated by an ocean. It hurts…some days more than others and a few blessed ones, hardly at all.
In all of it, though, there’s been that reminder. Mel, you are blessed. And no matter how you’re feeling, and no matter where you are, there are always blessings. And you need to count them.
And so I count.
The sunny days, the rainy ones too. The days when Mae and I dance together and the days when mama and daughter struggle. The times when the adventures abound and the moments when they don’t. The living room picnics and the pony-playing. The sweet days and the hard ones, too.
All of it.
And maybe that’s what that bike meant to me, the second I saw it…Life is an adventure waiting to be lived. Here. Where I am. (<====Click to Tweet!)
How can I live it today?
Well, I doubt I’ll be riding a bike, but I think there will be some dancing with my girl. Some coffee drinking. Some playing outside. We might even take a walk to the park.
And maybe I’ll find a place to hang my new picture, too. 
But there are also way too many times when I just avoid the mess.
P.S. Someday I’ll tell you the story of why we took this pic where we did…it may or may not be in the book. 😉 
I hope you’ll hop over and join us!
