30 Days of Thanks, Day 10: Forget

Forgetting is an interesting c onc

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I rarely forget things,

and I’ m pretty sure it drives Tobin absolutely crazy.

I remember details about things from a decade ago when he can’t even remember the event.

I sometimes frighten myself with my inability to forget.

Now I’ll be completely honest…becoming a mommy has made me more scatterbrained, but like I said, I still rarely forget things.

I think I attribute that to the fact that I hold on.

To memories, to friendships, to experiences.

Letting go is extremely difficult for me.

That’s kind of a hard thing to admit.

I’m just afraid that if I let go? I won’t remember.

And that means I’ll forget.

Scary.

People told me when Mae was born to savor every second because those moments would be gone so quickly.

It’s hard to believe them when you’re in the thick of something…I was sure I’d never forget a single detail…even if I was overly sleep-deprived and emotionally spent.

So not true.

Now that I’ve emerged from the overwhelmingly, exhausting world of feed, play, sleep, repeat…I don’t remember like I thought

I would. I still remember a lot…but I’ve definitely forgotten some things. Important things…like when her first smile was and when she first rolled over.

The good news about forgetting…that I am thankful for

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Is that though I may not remember each of those details and little things she did each day, they all add up to make this amazingly wonderful, little girl (who is currently NOT napping like she’s supposed to be…) into who she is.

I love that, even if I forgot some of the details.